cravings.

I am such an addictive person.
It gets to the point of ridiculousness sometimes.

I cannot go through a single day without having at least one monster craving. And i definitely do not use the term "monster craving" lightly. The worst thing about these monster cravings, is that they hit me like a lightning bolt. I'll just be walking down a hall at school, and all of a sudden, i just stop, shiver mentally and then my mind focuses on this ONE thing until i get it or until i get sufficiently distracted from it, which by the way is quite difficult to accomplish.

It's pretty annoying too. It usually gets in the way of my day. It's like someone put blinders on me and sent me off in the wrong direction.

Usually it's for food, and that's a pretty easy one to satisfy. All i have to do is wait until i get home and dive into a bowl of cookie dough or head over to Rabba and blow off ten bucks on Twix bars. The only problem with those cravings is that it's probably ridiculously unhealthy for me.

But what i'm actually talking about here; the craving that really puts a dent in my day, is the one for sleep. There's no possible way to cure that other than to, well, sleep. The thing about sleep is... it's such a waste of time, but when i need it, i really do need it. This doesn't cooperate very well my fourth period french class. I keep catching myself nodding off and collapsing almost onto Glenn's nearby shoulder (which, by the way, i'm sure is quite comfortable. goodonyoumate.).

I try everything to get my brain back into gear whenever this happens. I'm commonly seen self-slapping, self-pinching, or my least favourite, but most painful and therefore effective, self-biting. Unfortunately, each of these remedies usually results in only a short term consciousness, but long term pain. Also, it can make for some awkward situations when people see me biting myself... aheh...

The other kind of craving that i get that's particularily distracting is one for a good mark on a test (haha. you guys know where this is going. ahhpooie.). The thing about this craving, is that it's not quite as easily achieved as the two previously listed. It's not quickly remedied by a light snack, or a power nap. On the contrary, the solution in question is a much more complex, and long process including swimming through torrents of notes and concepts, and deciphering crpytic chemical formulas. All this just to acquire an amount of knowledge only sufficient to scrape a pass. And even then, there's the begging for marks that comes afterwards (lolgwen.).

These cravings... they aren't temporary. They're pretty much the summary of my academic career. A constant starvation, famine.

Anywhoooo i hope i don't sound to complainy, it's just a random observation i've made recently. (hopefullyyoualldon'tfeelthesameway.)

hopinforsevens.

This was written while listening to: Make it Mine - Jason Mraz