notquite.

I was more convincing myself than anyone else.
But in the end i really didn't need that much convincing.

Kay so. It was supposed to be yesterday that the results for cafe night were to be posted. But, they weren't. And so all of the hopefuls (and those of us who already knew they were gonna make it. welldone.) had to wait an extra day to verify whether or not they'd be the ones pooping themselves on stage about a month from now. The posting was postponed until today.

Last night, i had about a dozen conversations with different people, each of which included the topic of cafe night. And each time, i was told "there's no doubt about it, you made it!" Honestly, having so much support from everybody felt quite good. But it didn't really convince me that i indeed had made it. I knew from the start that if you're not incredibly talented, then it's all one giant popularity contest. And i wouldn't go so far as to say i'm incredibly talented. Therefore, when it comes down the popularity aspect, since i'm not the best of friends with our very own world class DECA executives, i'm the little guy, and i lose out.

I might sound a little resentful, but that's not the case. Of course i'm a little disappointed. I would have much preferred being in the show, but i think i never got my hopes up in the first place so there wasn't much to come tearing down.

A little tidbit of a story to describe how i found out this morning. The two girls who were putting up the results, did so at around 7:45, the same time that i went to check them. Nothing wrong with that so far. But for some reason, they hadn't considered the fact that you need something adhesive to post results. Unfortunately for them, their stubborn sheet of paper just would not stick to the wall. Unfortunately for me, it was about 5 more minutes until they finally got a hold of some tape, and then at that time they spent another minute straightening out the edges. I wanted to ninja chop them. They definitely knew i was waiting to see the results and still took their sweet time. Anways, i looked at the results, and headed off to class.

There are some things that you want really badly at one point in time. And when the time comes that you can't have it... you would still love to have it but you can definitely live without it. (hopethatmakessense)

justkeepsingin.

ranted while listening to: coffee and cigarettes - augustana.

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